I live at the edge of paradise. Literally. Figuratively.
Six months ago I flipped a coin between moving from Los Angeles to NYC or Miami. I sold everything, drove across the country with my dog and landed here…at the edge of paradise. In 2013 I’d made some incredible relationships in South Florida by working with musical heavy hitters like Rudy Perez, Jon Secada, David Frangioni, Mark Hudson & Troy Remi.
In reality, I knew these relationships weren’t what would take my career to the next level, but I needed a change. I needed to get out of the bubble that is Los Angeles, where the over-saturation of “art” felt suffocating & oppressive rather than inspiring. It was easy to justify why Miami was a good choice; I’m always consumed with making the “right” choice and this justification gave me a sense of security. As an artist, this need to feel secure & contemporaneously be creating incredible stories is a dangerous place to live. I don’t want to play it safe, if I do, a career in the arts is the worst place to be. I am messy and raw and expressive. I aspire to be unapologetic no matter what because I trust my artistic capabilities and intuition. It can’t matter what I “should” be doing,” only certainty, connection to my clear sense of purpose & looking towards the big picture can be my truth if I’m going to survive.
After sitting down with various labels, managers, producers and fans, I’ve realized that I’m right at the edge of tasting everything I’ve craved. The feedback is always positive. I need to keep the fire inside alive. To continue pushing allowing me to take my career to the next level, where I can share love, music, art and life on a larger scale. What has held me back? I have only myself to hold responsible. It’s not the job of anyone else to see what it is I know lives inside. It’s my job to show them in a way that’s undeniable. Whatever it is I do, as long as it’s carried out with pureness of heart and intent, I can’t go wrong. The heart is the seed and seat of intelligence.
I’m ready to bask in the light of fulfillment as I dive off the edge and into the perfect water, relinquishing my fears. Sink or swim.